It appears that I start out writing many thing with the two words: It appears. This may or may not stop or start in the future and it may or may not end or begin in the past. The curious thing is a small object that is inquisitive about everything. And nothing.
So with that said, or rather typed, we begin to understand the lack of understanding that Lao Tzu spoke so highly of as the beginning of true understanding or wisdom. I don’t recall which: understanding or wisdom. The difference between these two is evident to the most foolish of us. Including me.
So there we have it the answer to the question of who asked the question in the first place.
Indeed.
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Pride came to him on the evening of the sixth day. Ravel had awoke on the foresting bed of his southern refuge. Like his hiding place to the north he had chosen a well wooded outcropping on the western side of a foothill of the mountains. In reality it was a smaller mountain itself but compared to the Sabanes’ treacherous crags it was miniscule.
“You will not be dissuaded then.” Pride’s musical voice was a tenor now, a sign Ravel took to mean he had not been resting these past days.
“You have known my mind since I set out. I’m surprised you didn’t know prior to our arrival in Swardlock.”
“It was closed to us. You know we can not delve you. We can only listen to what you say to us. Only your initial lack of control allowed us to know so well in the beginning.” There was a touch of sadness in that.
“I knew this. Da’ros would have tried to prevent my return if you had told him of my plans. Either that or tried to come with me. He has wandered too long. The others, the others needed the succor of Swardlock. They had suffered too much to lay yet another burden on them.”
“What of their minds? They are able to decide whether they are able to aid you. Birnar served you as well as Da’ros on the passage west. Surely his knowledge of the keep would have aided you.”
“I would preserve them from this. Sarnon’s jackals may take me before I even reach him. For all my preparations I may not be able to elude them before I can kill him.”
“And after that? I assume you have plans for some sort of escape?”
“That may or may not come. Only Sarnon’s death matters. That is enough.”
“We can aid you, Ravel. We have revisited this area, knowing you were intent on it. The loss of the brethren here made us avoid it for a season.” Ravel know that season had spanned a decade, or longer, but he was acutely aware of the vagueness with which the Elil’yos conceive time. Their ability to hold knowledge of past still astounded him, but the placement of events past recent days seemed to placed in a few catgories. “A season” could span from months to a century. “The past” stretched into millennia. A punctuation mark in their memory was “The Bleeding” preceded by the “Lonely Time” and the halcyon days they dreamed of as only “The Beginning”. Those were the eons they spend in companionship to the beings human named the Co’atil. When they spoke of themselves it was always “The Brethren” and of the Co’atil “Out People”.
“We are not united against your goals but we are united in one thing: preserving your life. At risk to ourselves, some of us have scoured the outside of the keep and the mountain it inhabits. Knowledge that this sorcerer and his spawn could detect and harm us prevented the exploration of the interior, but you have a more than basic familiarity with the insides of the keep from the consumption of our enemies. Without your experience with Sarnon we would have no knowledge of the ease with which he and his Jackals could detect us. For this we thank you.
“As I said I am among those who wish to aid you. I offer you the knowledge we have gleaned in recent days, but there is a price this once for this knowledge: You must make an Oath of the Mark, a laying of a geas.”
The last word was in a language he did not recognize. “A laying of a what? What nonsense are you speaking of now?”
“In your people’s stories of their Beginning, a shaman was able to bind a warrior to an obligation by laying a geas upon them. The warrior would be unable to sway from his obligation without suffering dire consequences. This Oath of the Mark is comparable to this geas of old.” Ravel knew Pride spoke of traditions older than the world he stood on. The Elil’yos had gleaned as much diverse knowledge as they possibly could from their human companions during the Bleeding. He was unsure if The Lonely Time had left them voracious for knowledge or if they had been as curious in their Beginning as well. It was easy to recall their scouring of knowledge from him as well for they had been unable to hear the voices of the humans of this quarantined world until him. It was like watching a play from the back of the Highfalls squares and not catching the players’ lines.
“We require that you attempt to leave the Keep alive if is within your power. Da’ros, Birnar and the others you opened to us are unable to pass on the opening to others. Without you our ability to commune with Your People will be short-lived. We desire this to be otherwise. We have longed for companionship for eons, we have longed to be useful since the Bleeding. Your life must take precedent.”
“Surely you could find the trigger in them the way you taught me the triggers of night sight, the way you sussed out the trigger for healing from… from Adjar.” He stumbled over that last. He had almost called Adjar “my demon”, it was a possessive that came to his mind uncomfortably often since the exodus to Swardlock.
“We were able to observe the operation of those triggers. Those were on the surface. Those were intentions of the Mark. This change is deeper. We must study it more.”
Impatiently Ravel decided to agree. “Very well. I shall attempt to preserve my life. Now show me what more you know of the keep. Show me what you have found.”
“No. We must have the geas. This too is a trigger. A method of ensuring a Markholder will remain steadfast. It will only hold sway for a matter of weeks, but it is binding.”
“How binding? Surely it will not steal my will away from me? You can not be serious that such a thing is possible!”
“You have seen the sorcerer’s Jackals. He is not the first to bind such to his will. Their use is coerced though and much more extreme. In the Bleeding when the Mark was shaped it was shaped for a purpose. You have had some idea of this. I am surprised you have not realized this. In this case the purpose was to hold a person faithful beyond his normal strength of will. If a person was to keep a secret under duress, that secret would be kept. It forces focus, a kind of mania when the will weakens.”
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Ok, I’ve written some more, but I need to type it in still. I realized that on the last post I use “Sarnon” as the sorcerer’s name. It is actually currently “Gypalo”. Sarnon is the name of the Swardlock city. I sort of like that name better for the sorcerer though, so I may keep that and simply name Swardlock “Swardlock”. Gypalo sounds… frilly. The Sabanes mountainsmay change their name as well. Too many “S” names maybe. I had advantage of having my notes next to me as I wrote this time, so other names are falling in places as well as there Glyphnames. I may need to digitize some glyph names…
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Mist settled on the Sabanes mountains when Ravel reached the area he had chosen to begin his preparations. His journey had taken half the time to return as it had to reach Swardlock and his supplies had dwindled to a mere few days rations. His pace across the plains had left no time to supplement his meals with game, resting only for short bursts and trusting the stamina of his body and the Mark. It was simpler though as the scarcity of their supplies during his exodus with those he freed had demanded more foraging and hunting. On his departure from the city though, he had raided a goodly store of victuals.
Adjar had been relentless in his thrusts against his cage that held him in Ravel’s mind, at times forcing his rest earlier than he would wish, but he would not submit to the being and he was aware that weariness would weaken his mental defenses as well as his physical ones.
The demon lay silent though except for those assaults against the bonds Ravel wished he knew how break. No pleading or bargaining for favors came from the being that had been his hallmark of their early entanglement. Ravel realized that the demon had been silent since the debacle with Jorsec in the sorcerer’s pens.
Ravel worried that the consumption of those demons in the bowels of the sorcerer’s fortress had strengthened his own prisoner. It occurred to him as well that Adjar might consider him to be the prisoner, but it mattered little to his current goals. Dealing with him could wait. Sarnon was the only thing that mattered him now and recompense for the wrongs done.
The Elilyos were silent now, too. Well for the most part. They had argued with him the first few days of into his escape. That is how he thought of it. The priests of Swardlock would not have permitted him to leave willingly. He was an anomaly they would not permit to evade study. But his path was already set, set the moment his walked into the daylight not a day’s walk from this very wood. The sorcerer would pay: Pay for his actions and Ravel’s actions in escaping him.
Pride took the longest to drift off. The Elil had led him for the first weeks on the correct path, attempting to dissuade him the entire way while navigating to the point which he could pick out the landmarks he had noted on his departure from the Sabanes range. Finally it seemed the others had convinced Pride to leave him be and that he was not one worthy of conversation anymore.
He could still see the glow of the spirits circling the trees behind and around him and hear them whispering just out of earshot. Every now and then he caught a scrap of conversation but the words “foolish” and “stubborn” seemed to dominate those exchanges. The slight whisper continued through his entire journey, not the compelling beckoning that brought him to them in the desert. It was a conspiratorial whispering that left worrying about the loss of his allies. It was not as though they could aid him where he was going anyway, not with the sorcerer’s Jackal warriors of the ability to sense and destroy them.
The tricks of his Mark had given him the stamina to travel night and day for the past weeks to reach the mountain he had marked so assiduously in his memory during his departure. The nearly vertical north face with the indention one hundred paces from the top and the south face the showed a descending stair of rock ending in a graceful slope was as clear to him when it came into sight as it was when he had begun to set it in his mind. He referred to it as the Keep Peak despite hearing its real name given by the Warden of the Lock. He hadn’t need the other landmarks he had marked at all. The Triplets to the south he had named them rose twice as tall as the Keep Peak, but they were diminished in his mind to mere insect mounds next to it.
The northern peaks were taller then Sarnon’s mountain as well. It was once the guardian of the only pass within six hundred kilometers to the north and the south, a safe-house for those heading west from the dangers of the passes and launching point for the journey into the east, but now the malice it held seemed to pervert the once welcoming hostel.
Despite the haze and fog he immediately began to scout the area for a suitable refuge should things go awry. By his third night in the area he had established a second refuge an equal distance from the passage to the south, taking care to avoid the Jackal scouts. He rested during daylight and used the Mark’s night sight to reconnoiter the in and out of his camps. He refused to set up food snares out of wariness for the patrols as well, but his slower pace and growing familiarity with this area allowed him to gather victuals and game. On the evening of his fifth day he felt his preparations were sufficient for any needed escape. On the morrow, he would find his way to Sarnon’s heart. Only then could he rest.
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the other morning about Ravel’s travels in the wilderness. It was really only a black and white pen drawing of his encounters with mutated children with Giant heads. It has prompted me to consider creating the Ravel Saga in comic form. Not that I’d not considered it before. I had. But dreams move me more than logic in the realm of art. As they should.
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Here’s another rough snippet from the first novel:
A Touch Wild
“Ravel, I must give you a gift,” the Elil with him said, “It will help you through the night. Your Sign was made at the time of the Bleeding to help the Lost. It has tools to protect and help. I must unlock one of these. It will not be pleasant though.”
The demons were getting closer. “Anything would be good. Do what you must.”
There was no hesitation. A pain shot through his eyes and he screamed. “It will be easier next time, and painless the next. The Others unlock for the Lost. It is … an advantage.”
The landscape was on fire. Where night had covered the hills, it was now bright red and textured. After a moment the fire died down, but it was day in the midst of the night, color was absent and everything was shades of silver except the stars. The stars were blue and red and yellow and green and orange, distinct and brilliant. He could see other things he had not seen before: dark smoke massing in the air all around him that could only be the demons, and a dim band of changing color circled his waist.
Ravel did not question this gift. He could see his path and the demons. He could see an escape. The demons had homed in on his screech and were in pursuit. He could hear their hungry rasps as each veered toward him.
There was play their voices. He recognized now the difference between the chase on the ridge and this hunt. They had been toying with a fresh piece of game then, hungry yet not strong enough to take the prize. They knew how to wait a little while it seemed and now the wait was over.
Here was the prey in the open. Here was the hunt. Ravel began to run. The earth was vibrant before him, silver boulders and shrub brush all around him. The demons glided after him in whirling smoke patterns.
He ducked down into a ditch as a black shape whipped overhead, unable to change course. It seemed to grow clearer as forced itself around. Others came pouring after him as he scrambled to his feet in the other direction. A quick dodge to his left sent four shapes streaming past his ear, pulling up a quarter mile away.
Ravel continued at a trot. The first one he dodged was finally getting turned around. A reddish haze marked the form’s heading as it focused in on him and another change of direction left the demon reeling past again.
As he cut back and forth across the terrain, Ravel prayed his new sight and knowledge of the demons movement would preserve his strength across the miles ahead.
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I’m starting it. The air of disinterest is over. I’ve been writing a novel. It’s the reason behind the name raveller.com. I was the raveller because of Ravel. Ravel was because I thought of him. There were at least 3 sources for the character when I started. Now that I know more, there are more. But he remains the same. This is the story of Ravel. A man who has passed into manhood without knowing. A man who makes the decisions of a man thinking they are inconsequential, yet striving to make everything right around him. A man who knows nothing of the cycle he is breaking and the change he is creating in the world around. A man who doesn’t know that one random element that has been introduced into his life will be the one to destroy his way of being and his society’s. And this is how it begins. For now.
Not tonight
The party was nearly over when Glori left. She had said her say and more. The lamplight cast warm glows around the remaining huddled groups and Torm didn’t notice as she slipped out the latticework door. This was good since Torm always overplayed the host.
Starlight was all that illuminated her path. Night lamps had run out of fuel hours ago and the moon wasn’t due for a few days. The rock and clay buildings were easily navigable though, square-built and practical with wide-lanes in between, more than enough for even the traffic they would see in the morning. She was past the point of drunkenness where she had to consciously walk upright into that place where she automatically followed the path home.
What had he been thinking? To just stand over there and glare when he would be gone tomorrow. Best friends since childhood. To not even say anything and then try to slip out into the night. Into the wilderness.
Into the wilderness.
He always said what on his mind. Whether it was crude or eloquent or some twisted combination of the two, he always said what was on his mind. How utterly unlike him. How could he?
She could see his mark clearly despite her other trouble focusing. The ornate mass of threads interlaced like stylized ball of yarn almost gave the impression they were moving. She could hear his quick “Not tonight” when he ducked out the door as she tried to intercept him.
“Not tonight.” If not tonight, then what other night? He would be gone tomorrow. He would be gone into the wilderness.
Everyone else were just “maybes”. But he had that look since they had returned from the last retreat. His quick wit had given way to surliness and he seemed to spend every day working from sun-up to sundown. He never had any time to go swim in the river with the rest of them. Even Josiah went with them sometimes, but never him anymore.
Maybe she should have chased after him but then that would have made a scene. Not at all like her kissing on young Rolf and then slapping him for his audacity. Not at like her wishing Tanai a nice time in the desert. Not like a half a dozen ill-timed statements she wished she could have back with her two broken glasses on the Torm’s glaze-work floor. Her sobriety had certainly gone downhill after he left.
Staring at her surroundings she realized she was home. She fumbled at the latch and let herself in careful not to wake her parents and crept down the hall. Kicking-off her shoes, she crawled into bed.
“Into the wilderness” kept repeating through her head.
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What are the possibilities of a monkey writing my dissertation? I have some data. Really. I also have a leak under my sink, but a plumber is on the way. I think that must be a very happy job. You come in. You fix a leak. The leak is fixed. You leave. You don’t then have to wait by the pipe to see if it will leak again. You don’t have to ponder the ramifications of the leak, or of using a different type of tool on the leak, or if approaching the leak problem is something you should even be doing. And a brief news leak, which does not endanger any CIA operatives, you can see me here: Melody’s Life
Leaking is bad.
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So, you’re wondering why it was so long between updates. I was in a coma. That’s right: a coma. Sort of an Internet not updating-coma that allowed me to function normally in society, but a coma nonetheless. (No comments from those of you who think I don’t function normally in society.)
Anyways, I’ve got the normal set of recommendations that come with one of these updates. #1) Comic books. That’s right: comic books. Not only are they colorful and entertaining, they are less trouble than #2) Women. Women are colorful and entertaining but also perplexing and require communication skills to .. er .. communicate with. #3) Kiln People by David Brin. I’ve recommended this to two non-cyber people and they loved it as much as I did. #4) The White Stripes. Lance and Stacy made me go see them much to my entertainment. #5) The Flaming Lips. OK, I’ve never ceased to recommend The Flaming Lips, but I finally saw them in concert in OKC and they put on the most rocking rock show I’ve ever rocked out to. In short they rocked. (These recommendations are in no particular order.)
Feeling sleepy again…
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But I’ll probably do it again. I’ve made a few modifications to the Eye without telling anyone. They aren’t that big but I suppose I should note them. The background and the Eye animation change depending on the second of the day if you are using Netscape 4.0 and Internet Explorer 4.0 or higher. There are just a few but you won’t be able to see the difference if you don’t use JavaScript. If you do use JavaScript you can simply press the Back and Forward buttons on your browser to make the page switch images.
Please don’t upgrade your web browser just for the sake of seeing the new animations. Do it for the children. They need the latest technology or they won’t be able to go to college.
I put my favorite animation and background combination up as default for those of you who use Opera, older browsers, and for the JavaScript sensitive. It should be beautiful and remind you of a Eye that is Half Closed floating on a Deep Blue Sea.
I once said that I was going to avoid JavaScript and Frames entirely but I changed my mind. It wasn’t hard to do, but it was painful cleaning my old mind and putting it back in with the new one.
On Sub-Categories:
I modified my Opinions, Book Reviews by James, and EXHIBIT B to use frames. This may be painful for people who have trouble updating their browser past Mosaic 1.0 and Netscape 1.0 and their ilk. I have tested these pages with Netscape 2.02, Netscape 3.04, Netscape 4.0x, Netscape 4.5, Internet Explorer 4.0, and Opera 3.5 after an angry email from Mark in Fort Worth told me that none of my pages were working and forced me to toil feverishly to correct the errors of my mistakes.
raveller.com:
Is where you are at. “The Half Closed Eye” is so named because of a paragraph in the Barry Hughart novel entitled “Bridge of Birds”. An explanation of where the name “raveller” came from is here.
raveller.com is more than just one man’s attempt to show the world what he is made of. It is a family of my dedicated fans who love me and adore me and wish to make me, James Huckaby, their emperor and then assassinate me for bringing my private army into the domain, but it will be too late because I will have already established the precedent for hegemonius rule of raveller.com which will be contested for a span of centuries before barbarous hacker Goths overturn the once glorious empire as it wallows in its own decadence.
The Story of Ravel
This is the staging groud to unveil information on my story about your everyday average guy with a shape-shifting tattoo and a demonic monkey on his back. That is an over-simplification of course. So is what little is actually on the page. I’ve got pages and pages of non-digitized, non-presentable material that are not at all ready to be shown to anyone but my editor/sister Melody. I do have some Ravel related art up for display.
Photo Albums:
I regret that my mother’s side of my family do not have more pictures posted. They will regret it when I finally post them. I took some photos of my house that have not been developed yet. I will post them as soon as I have time. Also forthcoming (if the film wasn’t exposed) are photos of a twenty-five bar marathon. As the recorder of events I hope this will be an exciting piece of work. Until then you simply have to satisfied with older party pics.
Art Galleries:
I suppose I shouldn’t have to advertise my Art Galleries that much on this page. They receive quite a few direct hits from the search engines all by themselves. They are also quite popular with the ladies. Well, the ladies that visit them that is.
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